Paul's Blog

I am so lost. I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I know I should go back to college but where? I would like to dorm but can I afford it? And if I can where can I go? My first semester was scary and cost a ton. But I know I should go back. I want to go back. But I want to dorm. I want to move out. I want to be free. Am I just scared? Idk. But I know I can’t afford school. I couldn’t afford i saint Anselm. And if I dormed it would even more. But i dont want to go back if I cant dorm. College is no fun unless I move out and dorm. But im just scared I can’t do it.

“how do I know things are gonna be different?”
“because wrestling will be over so they won’t want to hang out anymore”
My point exactly!! Blew me off for that? For people you won’t hang out with again after wrestling ends. And blew me off on my birthday! Suspicion confirmed. I am number 2 on ur list…to EVERYONE else.

The one person who is always here for you and you blow them off on their birthday. Way to make a guy feel appreciated and special for everything he does for you. Happy Fucking Birthday to me.

The one day of the year that should be all about you is ur birthday. It’s ur one special day. You can get away with anything. Do what you want. Its ur birthday. It’s the one day you expect to be all about you. And on this day, the one day its ok to be selfish and ask for me time ur gonna blow me off for a group of people who make you want to die. Who is ALWAYS here for you? Why is it that I give 1 million percent and u give 1 percent. If that. We dont have to do anything but I would at least expensive effort out of u on my birthday. From the very beginning it was u wouldn’t mind if I did this on ur birthday right? NEVER once did u try to make plans. Apparently its my fucking job. You have one person in ur whole life who is ALWAYS been here for you. And on my birthfay ur going to blow me off because you want to have fun with ur “friends” there not ur friend. A true friend would have realized u were upset yesterday and wouldn’t be around people talking shit about you. YOU TRY SO FUCKING HARD FOR THEM BUT WITH ME U COULDN’T CARE LESS!!!!! And im fucking tired of pointing it out to you. It’s fucking sad that u try so hard to get them to like you that you don’t realize what your losing in me.

I’m a huge Dick. I dont care about you at all. I’m just like every other guy. your right I don’t care about you at all. I sit around trying to make you mad. My only goal in life is to piss you off. I tell you about my day not to make conversation. And i definatly don’t tell you about it so to be consoderate so at night when I’m busy ur not constantly txting me wondering where I am. Nope I tell u about my day just to brag. I do it to piss you off. I couldn’t care less about you. That’s why i buy u random gifts. Plan a fancy dinner for valentines day that is going to take all day to make. But knowing me and since im a hige Dick I am probably making it just to ruin Valentines day. No I’m doing it for you to make you happy. So that we can have a good Valentines day memory because if u remember you totally blew the last one. But ur roggt I’m a dick who brags all the time and doesnt care about you at all. And since u think that way and obviously we have been together so long and u kbow me so well I guess u must be right. Im a dick who couldn’t care less. And since u think that i might as well start acting like it.